How do you pray? Do you expect that what you pray for will be answered? Or are you just sending out feelers to see what comes back? Most of the time, we are not assured in our hearts or our minds, if we are honest, what the outcome of the praying will be. Of course, we want what we want now. We are impatient and demanding. Why hasn’t God acted on our demand? We are told that God has his own timing. But what if God is looking at the quality of our spirit as we pray?
In this part of Mark, we get a lesson in prayer. Jesus had cursed a fig tree that bore no fruit. The next day the disciples recognize this tree and it is withered. While the disciples are amazed, Jesus tells them: “I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.” Well, that certainly takes commitment. Commitment of the heart and a real gut belief that what you pray for, God can do, will do, wants to do. It will be in His timing if it is to happen, but nevertheless, there it is: it can happen, God will answer our call. He is listening.
Jesus adds something else when he says: “And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins." This is the part that we would prefer not to hear, because it puts the onus on us. There is an ‘aha moment” here showing us that there is more to it then just asking God to deliver the goods. We need to have a reverent, clean heart that is willing to forgive and has forgiven. Just maybe all that stuff we are holding in and not repenting, does make a difference. We are not perfect after all. Here is where we have to confront the situation. We need Jesus to intercede. Maybe we do need help in praying.
Once again it comes down to that hard thing we are asked to do. Forgive. God is watching us. No secrets are hidden from Him. His eyes are on us and they are the eyes of a Father who loves His children. Ever watchful. Waiting for our hearts to understand.
Laurie Erdman